Random Thoughts

How's it going? Shortly after my last post, I caught covid. Took me 3 weeks to fully get over. But this post is not about that however it does tie in a bit. I was extremely optimistic when I first moved down here but about 2 weeks into the covid experience, I started losing the optimism because I couldn't really do anything without fear of infecting people. Supposedly you can't infect people after 10 days but who REALLY knows. I felt like I could infect anyone I came in contact with until I was healed. I even wore my mask around the house to be sure I didn't infect any family members. More on that lack of optimism. Now I'm getting closer to the state I was in when I was up north in my last location. In the last post I mentioned that I need to just fear God and nothing else but I've been praying (half-assedly probably) and trying to be patient in letting God help me but I'm also feeling hopeless at the same time.  It seems like I've been getting depressed

 So I did it. I decided to move back home.  I'm not quite sure how I feel about being back. When I left before, it seemed like I would have a better shot at finding a job and making money elsewhere. Now that I'm back, it seems like the opportunities that I need (given the circumstances I'm in) are here and they seem to be plentiful which is a good thing. I'm optimistic about the opportunities and anxiety ridden about other things. Anxiety ridden about things that I don't necessarily have to be anxiety ridden about.  I recently listened to the Kanye West episode of the Joe Rogan podcast and he basically said that he fears God only and because of that, he doesn't have any fear about anything else. I believe that I'm going to do that same. Now is not a time for anxiety but a time for growth, success and prosperity. I'm choosing to leave the negative thoughts behind and be great. -Peace and happiness-

I didn't want to make a post like this but I guess I did since I'm making it. You know, sometimes I wonder if I'm on the tail-end of life. I don't mean to bore you with depressing stuff if anyone is even reading this at all lol but this is my blog and my random thoughts so here goes. There are circumstances that I have put myself in that have tarnished my record and have severely ruined the normal opportunities to me that everyone else born into this fucked up society has. It pains me that things in this country are the way that they are. However, because of these circumstances, it is hard for me to accomplish things that I may want to do in life. On top of those circumstances that I'm being extremely vague about but that you have probably already guessed the identity of, I have a health issue that has been bothering me for months. I know I will overcome these things. I have to overcome these things to be what I want to be in life. However, in the meantime, these th

 I really despise the way that you have to go about obtaining a job in this country. Everywhere is damn near the same: you have to apply online, go to an interview, and start working.  To go into further detail with these: Apply online- Every (almost every) company that you walk into and try to introduce yourself to in order to possibly speak with someone about getting a job, you will be immediately hit with the robotic phrase "apply online"....forced into the massive pool of many people who are in that very pool to be discriminated against. Are you surprised that I say that? You may be thinking "but they have laws to prevent that". Aside from laws meaning nothing in this country (Do you ever speed when driving? Of course you have. You broke the law), HR managers get to use software to "weed out" (discriminate against) people who don't meet EXACTLY what they're looking for even though a person who could've been their best employee could've

 ...because I really like Google and their products! BUT, I feel as though no one uses Blogger anymore. Obviously, I could be wrong. I didn't do any research before making this random assumption but I sense it to be true. Blogger used to be popular back when there weren't as many social media options. And yes I know there were still thousands of social media options available at the height of Blogger's popularity, but it isn't like it is today. The behemoths weren't at their pinnacle just yet.  People of today have very short attention spans (due to social media most likely) and they may not be able to pay attention or stay interested long enough to read a blog or they may just much rather watch an Instagram video or check out an even quicker Instagram Reel. Is the existence of the internet making humanity better as a whole.... or worse?   - Peace and happiness to you -